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Sunday, March 28, 2010

Waiting, Waiting, Waiting....

Next to the word "Limbo" in the dictionary would be a picture of yours truly; not DOING the Limbo, trying to get my big ol' belly under the stick, but just existing in a state of limbo. In grad school we would have pretentiously called it a Liminal Phase, but these days I don't use words like that so often. Every bit of my brain is wrapped up in waiting right now, and it makes it hard to think about anything else. What am I waiting for?

1. It's time for this family to get a bigger car. I've been squeezing my belly through a tiny space in a 2 door coupe to put my toddler in a car seat in the tiny back seat for long enough I suppose. Plus we cannot fit two car seats into the back row of our compact cars. So we are doing our research about cars and loans and I'm just waiting to see what kind of minivan we end up with. Fingers crossed it is smallish, as fuel efficient as possible, and a non-monstrosity that doesn't make me feel like I'm driving a boat. This could take a while to find....

2. House hunting, especially in this market, which is made up primarily of Short Sales right now, is a major waiting game. We have three different offers out on houses right now, 2 of which have us in first position. We just have to wait for that wonderful 3rd Party Approval, otherwise known as Behemoth Bank, which moves slower than molasses in January even though you'd think they would like to get some money out of a sinking ship and not end up with another foreclosure on their hands. Everybody send hurry up vibes to the banks!! Then we'll just see which one comes through first, really. I can't decide which one I'm rooting for, it changes on a daily basis. Plus maybe we will keep looking at other houses and then who knows how many offers we will end up putting down. So right now, I have this strange feeling like my brain really wants to make plans (nesting, anyone?) but I can't, because I don't know if we could be in a house in a month, or two, or four, and which house and where. Should I start nesting my little apartment ( I have been anyway, but I've reached a stage where I don't know WHAT to do now and I'm just sort of flummoxed by this waiting game. And lastly...

3. I've got a little over 5 weeks left until my due date, which of course doesn't mean much, except that I'm in the most uncomfortable stage of my pregnancy, the part where you kind of wish you could go into a coma for a month or you had a ginormous fast forward button on your life. Pregnancy is the ultimate waiting game, and the last month or so is the ultimate of the ultimate. So that's my life right now. It's amazing how preoccupied you can be with waiting, how much time you can spend thinking and wondering. I wish I could be better at putting it out of my mind and having a little faith. I'll keep working on that, and I'd welcome any suggestions!!!

6 comments:

Janae said...

That last month is torture. I agree. Hopefully you hear back about a house soon!

Nate and Jessica said...

Man you do have a lot of waiting going on. You didn't mention WAITING for us to move closer to you!

megandjon said...

how could i forget that jess? i'm also waiting for a family wedding in may and my son's second birthday, but i didn't want to overload everyone!

Anonymous said...

Limboland is really not a fun place to be. You feel stuck and you can't move forward. I am sorry you are there, but there must be something to be learned from this place. My motherly advice: just enjoy that precious little boy you have; and since you're stopped, you might as well smell the roses, eh?
Love, Momma

Mrs.Smith said...

:)
Sending hugs!
I hate the waiting game. Never fear, my dear! It will end! You'll get out! And be so much the better for it, really. You're going to be absolutely amazed at how your heart grows with the birth of your second baby. It's... wow. TOTALLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY worth waiting for.

You can do it! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heatherlady said...

Thanks for your comment on my blog, it really appreciated your insights. The conversation has given me a lot to think about. It is nice to meet you:) Best wishes with this new little one. Waiting is hard but so worth it. I'll share a story from my V.T that really helped me when I was pregnant with my first.

Her niece was a week past her due date and kept having false labors. She was really struggling. She was considering being induced but felt wrong about it deep down inside. Eventually her father gave her a blessing in and in it he told her that her little boy was having a hard time saying goodbye on the other side of the veil and that this transition to this world was going to be hard one him. She needed to be patient and wait for him to come when he was ready. He still took about another week to come but knowing that he wasn't ready spiritually to come yet gave her the strength to keep waiting. You never know what that little one has to finish up there... so it is worth it to be patient... even though it is SO hard.